Alone

I feel like I build my dreams up strong and fast

But you break them more quickly and they shatter like glass

Sighs and sleep

The space inside me grows

Into hardened resentment

That I decide to divide for logic's sake

For in front of me lies the path less traveled 

And yet my yoke is too wide to fit through  it

I divide it as such:

I blame the one next to me

He does not appreciate the closeness of the small yoke

He thinks it pinches me, though it does not

I blame the one who yoked us

He lead us to this path knowingly and yet fit us poorly for it

He watches even now as I strain to see beyond its curving length

He tells me how I would do so well on it

How I would love the sights and smells

He even mentions that he has shoed me for such a path

And yet I do not take it

I love them both

But tonight I resent them too

The flickering spark

I offer you a gift

I give you my life

My dreams

My ultimate love

My undivided affections

My mindful attentions

But for you to give that back

Every day

Threatens to become a task

And you don't want to check it off

So I must restrain my gifts

And hold back my self

I must look for other ways to love

With less of me

Less often

Because all of me all the time

Was too much

But I am a being of extremes

Of deep intentions

I do not live on plateaus

Only in dark valleys and bright mountains

The dull fields and plains are not for me

So in my heart I fear

In having less of me

You will soon have none

And thus this connection will burn out

The fog

The fog rolls in with my thoughts

The music triggers a memory

The memory a sense

The sense a feeling

The feeling a loss

The loss a statement

The statement a reality

The reality is here

But the fog covers the here

It allows me to travel

I step into the grey billows 

In the mist I see another life

It is faded and moody with the winds

Shifting and folding in upon itself

As I listen it is muffled

I hear the music, though faint

And then I shiver

The cold seeps into my skin

It wraps me up and pushes me around

And although this place seemed magical

I am done with it now

I long to be back in the warmth 

To see the light reflect off clear waters

To feel the heat between shadows

I am ready for this haze to lift

I am ready to be back in the sun

Best friends

The deep part of my being is aching 

The heart of my hearts feels sore

I know it is you I am missing

Each day I wish you were here more

Expectations

A spray of arrows flying 

And I understand what from

But you shoot me down and wound me

Then ask me to perform 

Know me

Can you feel the break in my nose?

Touch it gently from top to bottom,

You will feel the sharp crack 

Through the tenderness of my skin.

Can you see the freckles on my skin?

Peek at my shoulders as I move,

As my shirt shifts and they appear

Like constellations moving through the sky.

Can you see the breath that I breathe?

Watch me closely as I rest,

And it steadies like the waves

Rising and falling on the shore of my ribs.

Can you read the words on my lips?

Feel them shape each sound,

Softly sending them off

Into the earth's constant turn.

Can you hear the excitement in my voice?

Listen carefully as I exclaim,

And my voice shifts to whispers of wonder

Holding the feeling closer and closer as it grows.

Can you see the world through my eyes?

Peer closely at them,

Sink into the depth of them

And soak in the many hues of this life.