Today my heart feels heavy. I am tired but I don't know if I can sleep. My blood seems to flow in a dilapidated rhythm that my hands reflect in shakes of weakness.
Today my heart feels heavy. I am thinking and reasoning and trying to work out what I see as kinks in the plan, in my plan, only to realize that the kink is that I am relying on my plan. And yet I do not want to give it up.
Today my heart feels heavy. I see myself as I am. Lost in myself and staring at another who should be so close to me I can feel his breathing on my neck and yet I am so far from him right now. But I chose that.
Today my heart feels heavy. I look at my future and I see things I may not want to do/be/have and yet I also see him and that should be enough for me right now. I know that He has it planned out for my good.
Today my heart feels heavy. I see every choice come before me from the moment we met and have no room to regret any of them. I knew who you were and I know who you are now, even if you don't. But I also wish you knew the same about me.
Today my heart feels heavy. I don't know when it will feel light again. I don't know if it will ever feel light again. But I do know who holds it in His hands and He can handle the weight.
Today my heart feels heavy. I am thinking and reasoning and trying to work out what I see as kinks in the plan, in my plan, only to realize that the kink is that I am relying on my plan. And yet I do not want to give it up.
Today my heart feels heavy. I see myself as I am. Lost in myself and staring at another who should be so close to me I can feel his breathing on my neck and yet I am so far from him right now. But I chose that.
Today my heart feels heavy. I look at my future and I see things I may not want to do/be/have and yet I also see him and that should be enough for me right now. I know that He has it planned out for my good.
Today my heart feels heavy. I see every choice come before me from the moment we met and have no room to regret any of them. I knew who you were and I know who you are now, even if you don't. But I also wish you knew the same about me.
Today my heart feels heavy. I don't know when it will feel light again. I don't know if it will ever feel light again. But I do know who holds it in His hands and He can handle the weight.
